The last couple of weeks have been busy and strange, which is one of the reasons why I have not been super active on here lately. I’ve packed up my whole life into two big suitcases and left my home country to study somewhere else for five months. I’ve had to say goodbye to my friends and family, and now it’s time to start all over again. A different place, different people, a different university, a new home. In short, I could just say that my life has completely changed in just a week time. I’ve planned this moment for months now, and now it’s finally here. I’m sitting here in a little cafe in Manchester, UK to write about how I feel about all this. It feels strange being in a different country knowing that I did not buy a return ticket home, because this will be my home for the next couple of months. Even though I know it’s only temporarily that I will be living my life here, I also know that it will be a really important experience in my life. I’ve never really done something like this before. I’ve lived in the same small village my entire life, and now here I am walking around in a big city on my own. I think being on my own, having to figure everything by myself in a new place will be an amazing opportunity to really learn more about myself, and hopefully develop myself as well. I’m curious to see how I will feel like in a few months, when I will be returning back to my home country.
So how do I feel right now? To be honest, I was super scared to get very homesick the first few days of being here. But luckily this did not happen (yet). I know there will be times I will miss my home and especially my friends and family from the Netherlands a lot, but these first few days have been so busy for me, I didn’t even have the time to think about it. On the one hand I know that I will miss my family and friends a lot, on the other hand it feels really good to do something completely by myself and meet new people here. I feel both scared and excited about being here, but I know that it’s the right decision. Whenever I’ve told people about moving to the UK for 5 months, many responded with the question if I will be going there all by myself. And after hearing my answer, many of them said that it’s such a brave thing to do and that they would never be able to do something so challenging on their own. This is something that surprised me so much. I’ve never hold myself back from doing anything because of having to do it on my own. Studying in the UK has been something I’ve wanted to do for years now, and I finally got the chance so I took it. I really think that doing such things on your own, and not holding yourself back because of anyone else, is so empowering.
Also, it feels really good to be writing again, maybe because there’s just a lot of changes going on in my life right now and this is a bit of an outlet for me, but maybe also because I’ve missed it. I always love reading back the things I’ve written during specific moments in my life, and I think this one is definitely one to look back on in a few months. Right now everything still feels a bit unreal, and I’m curious to see how I’ll feel in a few months when I’ve settled down and get back into a daily routine.
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